Now I should be past this school girl behaviour of being scared , After all I am a 47 year old woman who has given birth before and that bloody hurt , I felt I had done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson !!
Yesterday I went for coffee with my bestest and oldest friend that i have in my life , and we chatted about the positives and outcome regarding this op , we also said that it was a good omen that the op is on her birthday !!!
She is a very good friend and has supported me in terms of cheering me up , by the way of coffee outings , helping with shopping and just being there , Even when she picked me up , she gave me a bag of sanctuary goodies including a long handled body brush , which i was going to buy , to get my back in tip top condition !!
Bless her .
I do feel like its the calm before the storm , and there are a few answers that i need to help complete the jigsaw picture that i have in my head .
Hopefully i will get these on my final pre op checks on the 10th Sept ,
meanwhile i shall busy myself with still trying to work out how to put pics and links into this blog ,
It cant be THAT hard !!!!! Can it ??
Thursday 26 August 2010
Sunday 22 August 2010
30 days to go !! the time is going quick
My countdown is telling me I have 30 days left before I am having a life changing event !!
I AM scared , I'm laying awake a lot trying to drop off to sleep , my mind is a jumble of how will it affect my day to day life for a few weeks , the pain factor is also a huge thing ,
Will I cope without bending , twisting , and lifting ?, I've got my eye on a couple of grabbers as recommended by some people on the spine health forums . I'm already thinking ahead .
But I am looking forward to normal life eventually , perhaps even a gym as I was such a gym fanatic a few years ago and the gym was where I met my husband , Chris .
It's been hard on him too and sometimes I forget about this , this year has really tested our marriage as I haven't worked for a year due to being signed off by my GP and Chris losing his job a couple of months into my sick leave has been a double whammy !!!
The joys of being together 24 hours a day is factored in as we tear strips out of each other !! Typically its our 5th wedding anniversary this year , and it will be spent at home , instead of the Dominican Republic holiday we had booked , the day we were to jet off is actually the date of the op , now that's kinda spooky .
I'm still trying to figure out the techie details of this blog as to putting links in etc , so bear with me , IT WILL HAPPEN !!!!
Ive also joined a exclusive club called the spineys !! so there , I'm officially a spiney !!
I AM scared , I'm laying awake a lot trying to drop off to sleep , my mind is a jumble of how will it affect my day to day life for a few weeks , the pain factor is also a huge thing ,
Will I cope without bending , twisting , and lifting ?, I've got my eye on a couple of grabbers as recommended by some people on the spine health forums . I'm already thinking ahead .
But I am looking forward to normal life eventually , perhaps even a gym as I was such a gym fanatic a few years ago and the gym was where I met my husband , Chris .
It's been hard on him too and sometimes I forget about this , this year has really tested our marriage as I haven't worked for a year due to being signed off by my GP and Chris losing his job a couple of months into my sick leave has been a double whammy !!!
The joys of being together 24 hours a day is factored in as we tear strips out of each other !! Typically its our 5th wedding anniversary this year , and it will be spent at home , instead of the Dominican Republic holiday we had booked , the day we were to jet off is actually the date of the op , now that's kinda spooky .
I'm still trying to figure out the techie details of this blog as to putting links in etc , so bear with me , IT WILL HAPPEN !!!!
Ive also joined a exclusive club called the spineys !! so there , I'm officially a spiney !!
Wednesday 18 August 2010
Yet another night of unsettled sleep , and waking to go to the loo , because the spinal cord is pressing on my bladder ,
I'm really trying not to take pain killers at the moment as I will need all the effect , that morphine pump will deliver in hospital .
Silly thing is I lay awake quite a lot , thinking about how will I pull my knickers up , do up my bra , wipe my botty !!
It really is a step into the unknown ,
Ive only ever had my tonsils and appendix out and that was in 1991 !!
Also I worry about waking up on the table , while they are drilling into my spine !!
I really need to get a grip !!
Today , I will be popping into my work place with that all important confirmation letter , and seeing a few of my work mates .
I find it hard as every time I go in there , it makes me realise how much I miss them , which is why I stay away .
It's a sunny day here today , I must adapt the sunshine feeling inside my head and body !!
I'm really trying not to take pain killers at the moment as I will need all the effect , that morphine pump will deliver in hospital .
Silly thing is I lay awake quite a lot , thinking about how will I pull my knickers up , do up my bra , wipe my botty !!
It really is a step into the unknown ,
Ive only ever had my tonsils and appendix out and that was in 1991 !!
Also I worry about waking up on the table , while they are drilling into my spine !!
I really need to get a grip !!
Today , I will be popping into my work place with that all important confirmation letter , and seeing a few of my work mates .
I find it hard as every time I go in there , it makes me realise how much I miss them , which is why I stay away .
It's a sunny day here today , I must adapt the sunshine feeling inside my head and body !!
Tuesday 17 August 2010
A bit of potted history about me !!
I've had a relatively healthy and sensible life until i was diagnosed with a spinal probelm .
I think this stems from when I used to do nightshift work filling the shelves in a well know supermarket ,
Even though I was a shortie in height , 4ft 10 then , they could see I was strong and tended to put me on the heaviest aisles , I did this for 3 years , which enabled me to look after my daughter who was still at school , so i could still do childcare during the school holidays . This was from 2000 until 2003 when i changed over to days and it wasnt so much lifting then as I worked on various departments ,until i found my current job working in the genreal office , doing price control and advertising .
I first noticed that my back was achy after a days work , almost every day , it concerned me it felt a bit too much pain to be having on a regular basis .
I decided to see my GP who signed me off work for two weeks , prescribed me painkillers and sent me for an Xray in Feb 2008 ,
I went back for the results , and she had printed them out for me
The results was ' Probably spondylolytic defect at L5 with grade 2 spondlolisthesis of L5 on S1.
Significant decreased in disc height at this level in keeping with degenerative disc dieses.
the other lumbar discs are well maintained .
I was relieved that it was'nt all in my head , but knew that my back would never be the same again
the doctor requested that I have an MRI to show in more detail how servere it was .
I think this stems from when I used to do nightshift work filling the shelves in a well know supermarket ,
Even though I was a shortie in height , 4ft 10 then , they could see I was strong and tended to put me on the heaviest aisles , I did this for 3 years , which enabled me to look after my daughter who was still at school , so i could still do childcare during the school holidays . This was from 2000 until 2003 when i changed over to days and it wasnt so much lifting then as I worked on various departments ,until i found my current job working in the genreal office , doing price control and advertising .
I first noticed that my back was achy after a days work , almost every day , it concerned me it felt a bit too much pain to be having on a regular basis .
I decided to see my GP who signed me off work for two weeks , prescribed me painkillers and sent me for an Xray in Feb 2008 ,
I went back for the results , and she had printed them out for me
The results was ' Probably spondylolytic defect at L5 with grade 2 spondlolisthesis of L5 on S1.
Significant decreased in disc height at this level in keeping with degenerative disc dieses.
the other lumbar discs are well maintained .
I was relieved that it was'nt all in my head , but knew that my back would never be the same again
the doctor requested that I have an MRI to show in more detail how servere it was .
Monday 16 August 2010
Hello to fellow spinal pain sufferers ,
I've decided to start up a blog for my up coming operation in september ,
There really is'nt that much info considering how the internet has grown .
Hopefully I can help others with their road trip too ,
It's also my first time blogging too , so for a 47 year old broad , its groundbreaking for me !!!!
Please watch this blog grow !!!
I've decided to start up a blog for my up coming operation in september ,
There really is'nt that much info considering how the internet has grown .
Hopefully I can help others with their road trip too ,
It's also my first time blogging too , so for a 47 year old broad , its groundbreaking for me !!!!
Please watch this blog grow !!!
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